Sunday, October 31, 2010

Fear Of Death

Four months ago, my dear brother died suddenly, he was nearly my age. For some reasons today, while I was taking a shower, I remembered him and all the events on the day of his death.  I remembered the time I was in hospital seeing his lifeless body, dozens crying out loud and some others who were shocked while others were standing still.

In the hospital, while others were crying I was standing and seeing my brother’s dead body, thinking what he is going through now, one day I will be in his place. Filled with thoughts I lost myself and lost awareness of what’s going around me. I wasn’t crying but there was an ache within my throat so gripped it, I could make no sound but a thick sobbing. Images were flashing in front of me and without realizing, my tears were running heavily down my cheeks raining the ground with teardrops. The doctors covered my brother and took him out of the room. When my elder brother saw what I was going through, told me to stay in the room and closed the door to not let my mother see me crying, for my mother was always moved by the feelings of her sons.

I remember when we went to the cemetery, seeing people preparing my dead brother to bury him, surrounded by family and close friends. I saw tears of people I never expected to see. That night I buried my brother with my hands…

When I was in my room, I realized that I am scared to the bones. After all, my brother was a healthy man and he wasn’t sick or tired, he was walking peacefully and suddenly fell so I was afraid to walk I could barely step forward fearing to be the next in the list of Angel of Death. I was surprised of this fear since I am, like any other human, fully aware that one day we will be dead but I think what was the source of this great fear is the uncertainty of the hour of death included my attachment to this world and my ignorance of Death.

We may have cure for any disease and have insurance against day-to-day uncertainty we may come across. No human have neither a shield protecting him against the claws of death or a body that can endure the pain. The threat of death makes people a lot more aware of their lives, as much as the sunset view is beautiful yet it's scary knowing the fact that we are one day closer to death.

We humans naturally might fear a great person or a great being, but once this being is with us all the time in our thoughts, the fear get less. Like a king of a great empire, the people may respect and fear him while his sons can act freely without any fear in his presence.  We are living our days without uttering a word about death then suddenly seeing death has chosen close people we love causes great fear and grief. The fear originally emerges in from the lack of preparation and that fear is less to people who always remember the angel of death.

When we feel death is in our presence, everyone will accept the bad circumstances he or she been through their lives. Sickness, aging, no money and bad relationships, we will accept all of that. Nobody is willing to die and all the negativity we have in our life is no burden compared to the burden of death.

We should really do something about the false believe we have deeply rotted in our heart that we are immortals. We cannot kill death but at least we can kill our fears by preparation and best way to have a great preparation is seeking knowledge than act honestly upon the knowledge we have.  Understanding that Life & Death both are God’s creation and understanding that it’s a cycle will aid us to overcome our fear of death. The reason we fear death is because we are not prepared and focused on what’s life teaching us, we are like students in a class, we get totally surprised and filled with fear if the teacher suddenly said: “Guys, close your books, we are going to have test NOW”.

The awareness of the day of our death is the day where our physical journey ends in this material realm and the first day to the journey of eternity is a great knowledge we can benefit from. Living each day as our last will greatly affect the way live. Take one day at a time; focus on what you do and give it your best. Don't be too attached to anything…

I am glad I remembered those moments, as the time pass we unintentionally forget our purpose in this life. The faith in our heart is like a perfume we wear, as the time pass the smell get weak till it's totally gone so we wear it again. The same goes for faith if you don't renew your faith every now and then there is a possibility its light will fade till it's totally gone. One wish I always hold dear is, when my time comes near I face death without fear. If I defeat my fears I will choose to walk toward death instead of waiting for death to come…


Saturday, October 30, 2010

Al-Magrudy's Warehouse Sale

It is said once that "A room without books is like a body without a soul."  Cicero

I've heard about special events where bookstores cut the price of the books or even bargains like buy one and get the other for free. However, the Magrudy's Warehouse Sale is nothing like before! They have books for 1 AED, 2, 5, 10, 15 & 20 AED. I heard about the Sale from my friends but never believed it until I've been physically there, I always thought it was only those 20 to 50 pages books that are covered by dust, but amazingly I found 500 pages books for 1 AED!!!  Hard cover books, both fictions and non-fictions best-sellers are there, all you have to do is to search.

The sale started two days back and it will end today, I visited Magrudy everyday and I found myself buying almost 50+ books at each visit. The first day I visited the bookstore in the afternoon and my first impression was:"Is this a book shop or a fish market?"   I couldn't  focus,  many people were loaded with Al-Magrudy's green bags, camel-with-glasses blue bags, some with trolleys, while I requested the normal bags since I didn't think I would buy many books for most of the books were fictions.

Few minutes later, I found many non-fiction books I always wished to buy, and many other huge books that are worth the price, so I started throwing books in the bag so I ended up with four bags full of books that didn't even cost me 400 AED! While I remember my last visit for Al-Magrudy I ended up buying around 6 books for 700+ AED.

Loving the sale I decided the next day to be there at 7 so I can explore the books without noise and in hope to buy the best-sellers of Non-Fictions books before they end like the first day. Surprisingly enough I found a long queue of people for Al Magrudy to open the door of their shop. I never thought that people in UAE are so much into books!  This made me happy but at the same time I felt sad because I have to wait to enter the shop and the fact that I was the only national there who is so eager to get books.

Friday, October 29, 2010

~The Fallen Light~

~The Fallen Light~

My answer, how can I explain...
This misery, suffering and pain...

I am just A human being...
A mistake made of feelings...

With a soul wrapped in chains...
So fragile, full of pain...

Some don't know why we are here...
Giving laughter and so many tears...

I will just do my best...
To keep my head above the rest...

"The Fallen Light" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Bin Mohammed 2007

Thursday, October 28, 2010

الكافر بربه ناقض لنفسه



بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الحمد لله وحده و الصلاة و السلام على من لا نبي بعده

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته... بضع كلمات كتبتها أشارككم بها... اعلم وفقك الله بأن الكفر في اللغة العربية كما ورد في معاجم اللغة العربية مثل لسان العرب و الصحاح و غيرهما بأن أصله الستر و قولك كفرت الشيء أكفره ـ بالكسر ـ كفرا: سترته. و سميت القرية كفرا لسترِها أهلها و قيل للزراع كفار كما في الآية "كمثل غيث أعجب الكفار نباته" لأن ملقي البذر بالأرض كافر أي ساتر لأنه يستره بترابها ويغطيه و سمي الليل أيضا كافر لأنه يستر ما فيه من ظلمته

فالقاعدة كل شيء غطى شيئا فقد كفره

فالكافر الجاحد وجود الله عندما يجحد و يكفر وجود الله يحاول ستر موجود و الغير موجود لا داعي بأن تستره... فقول الكافر: "أنا كافر أو كفرت بالله" فهو في الواقع يناقض نفسه, لأن الغير موجود لا يستر فكونهم يكفرون بالله فقد أثبتوا لنا بأن الله موجود من حيث لم يحتسبوا...

كذلك الملحد فهو يناقض نفسه, عندما يقول الملحد أنا لا أؤمن بوجود الله نقول له إنك تناقض نفسك بنفسك, لأنك أقررت بأن هناك "الله" فبداية جحده و كفره يناقض نهايته و إقراره و ذلك لأن كل شيء في العالم قبل أن يعطى اسما فلابد أن يكون موجودا... فمثلا القلم سمي قلما عند البشر بعد وجوده في الكون, وكذلك السيارة فقبل آلاف السنين لم يعرف العالم ما هو السيارة لكن ما إن وجد في عالمنا أطلقوا علماء اللغة على هذه المركب هذا الاسم... فالله موجود و إن لم يكن موجودا لم يكن له اسم و أسماء الله و صفاته و أفعاله لا نستطيع حصرها فكون الملحد لا يؤمن بوجود الله فقد ناقض نفسه بنفسه فسبحان الله...


الكافر بربه ناقض لنفسه

لا جرم أن الله يصفهم تارة "صم بكم عمي فهم لا يرجعون"  و   "لهم قلوب لا يفقهون بها" و "إن هم كالأنعام بل هم أضل" و "أولئك هم الغافلون" و "أم تحسب أن أكثرهم يسمعون أو يعقلون إن هم كالأنعام بل هم أضل سبيلا"

هذا والله أعلم

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Dying Hearts...

This morning I realized that we are really cold-hearted people. Upon the news of the death of Sheikh Saqr bin Mohammad AlQassimi may Allah bless his soul, the first thing I heard from my colleagues was: "Is there a day off?" The 7 working hours were wasted on discussions of "whether we should be given 1 day or 2 days off!" while others shouted: "At least for a respect of one of the great leaders in UAE we should at least have 3 days off!!!"

I myself one of the cold-hearted people just ignored instead of saying anything to them I cowardly begun talking to myself "If the UAE leaders are not respecting such a great leader of one of the seven Emirates, I kept asking myself burning inside to tell them: "Are you really respecting "Almighty Allah!". Shouldn't we be prepared for "Death”. A Muslim brother like us died yet instead of having empathy we are filled with happiness that we may get the chance to have one day or two days off.

To this extent we are so cold-hearted not caring about the family of the man died, imagine if that person was your father and you see people around you feeling happy and asking about vacations, what will be your feeling?

I am not sure how others were raised but according to Islam's teaching, putting the needs of others into consideration, loving for them what we love for ourselves and acting to provide them happiness has tremendous impact on one’s self and for the society. However after today's incident, I realized we are leaning more to selfishness, lack of emotion, pity, love and sorrow.

We are smiling and happy when we should really feel like crying we are acting as everything is okay when slowly our heart falling apart inside and our feelings starting to fade into that color of the sky at night. I am not an exception, I might be worse than those people, for I took the advantage of this even to write these lines to drive your attention after all? However I would still achieved my goal if it leads you to think about yourself.

We always keep repeating that what makes humans is their hearts not their looks, what's inside not what outside, all of us would do everything to extinguish a fire burning his or her room, car, or even some pieces of paper or maybe even a sketch while evilness and cruelty is burning our hearts yet we are not doing anything to extinguish that fire.

All I can say that with such hearts we shouldn't hope for a better future, if we Muslims are acting this way! We are supposed to be the kindest nation in this world, yet to this extent we are falling can you imagine about the wild beings inside our world. Well, my friends, the future doesn't belong to the faint-hearted and death of Sheikh is not greater loss than what dies in the hearts of thousands of Muslims, this loss is really one of the greatest losses if you ask me.

Our behaviors proves our priorities in life, we are longing for happiness and rest from work one or two days and the sacrifice we are gladly offering is the death of great men so we may enjoy 7 hours sleeping or actually doing things mostly not of important value.  What we are actually doing reminds me of the legend of the dragon who asks for a virgin sacrifice so he can spare the village one day, for one day they are ready to sacrifice one of their sisters or daughters.

Finally I want to remind all of people who immediately asked about days off, those men dying were once a Son… A Brother… A husband… A father… A Grandfather… A Teacher… A Leader… and greatest of all, he was once a SERVANT OF ALLAH, the Almighty creator of heavens and earth. I want you to ask yourself, is it worth it that we trade few hours of rest and sleep with a man who played so many roles in life?

"Our Lord! We have wronged our own souls: If thou forgive us not and bestow not upon us Thy Mercy, we shall certainly be lost."

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

"Don't Do Your Best!!! "

In Dr. Wayne Dyer’s101 Ways to Transform Your Life” audio cd, it is said that don’t do your best in everything because there will be no room for improvement. However this goes against what I was taught and against teaching of the greatest teachers in the world.
First of all, the claim that there will be no room for improvement is wrong, if the man didn’t do his best, he is not going to improve and he will be in the same range of his abilities. However if he does his best in every act he can stretch the range a little bit further and go beyond his “Believed Limits” discovering new capabilities. One doesn’t know what his or her limit is until he or she does his best; otherwise there is no way he or she knows what his or her limit.
Just doing things we like may give us some happiness but the truth is that we feel best when we do the best in things we like most. Doing the best we can gives the best possible results for our level of acts. Think of two people praying, one praying and feeling good about it. While the other is praying and as he prays,  he does his best not to let his mind stray, he is focused on his praying as he is seeing god. Focusing on the words he is hearing or saying then compares the results of both.
Now why do need to do our best, well first of all to have an answer to God if he asked us “Why you didn’t do your best in this situation?” I wonder what Dr. Wayne’s position is if he answered: “Well I didn’t do my best so I can be at ease, feel joy and to leave room for improvement”. Even I [A Human Being] with limited knowledge can answer: “Do you have a guarantee you will live till that improvement comes?”
Once we get used to doing our best we will have the act of “Doing our Best” as a habit opening room to think of doing “Best of our best”. Today is preparation for tomorrow and all the other tomorrows that follow and we are used to do our best the day before exam so we do well in the exam the next day.
Best results comes in any act, is doing the best we can then rely on God for making it perfect. Imagine a king who gave you money and he asked you to build a castle, and before you spend the money he gave you, you ask him for more money! Can you imagine his response? However if you spend all the money in building and then it required more money the king will gladly give you extra money because he is seeing you are doing your job and you are doing it greatly.
Not doing the best when we can is like an ant in a water bottle, instead of doing the best it can to get out of the bottle. It keeps moving up to middle of bottle and then return because coming and going in his range is an amusing game for the ant. This continues and the ant dies in that range without exploring the world outside the bottle. Note that doing the best doesn’t mean doing things that consume most of our efforts but do what’s really required of us to do in the best possible way

~Faith~

Walking alone, alive but dead...
With no light to guide my way...
Yet can make it alone I am not scared...
Without wings I am trying to fly away...
All dreams and wishes are heading to afar...
Our shared memories will tie me down...
Memories will leave an invisible scar...
But don't worry my soul can hold his own...
You chose to leave our love behind...
Escaping dreams trying to go and hide...
So don't turn back when you are in front of the door.
Because if you do, It will hurt you even more...
I can't make you mine so be free...
But I will never forget you and that's me...
I will miss your smile and your face...
But forever I will never lose my faith...

"Faith" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Bin Mohammed 2007

Monday, October 25, 2010

~Fading~

Have we been clouded by the looks?
Does dignity and respect meant nothing?
Is money and gold are the only you hook?
And manners and respect doesn't even ring?

Does the look meant everything to you?
While the warm heart is just let to die?
Are you really a care-free fool?
With the angel of death beside you standing by?

Does the good values being ignored?
While the opposite being praised?
I just wish that it is not
Since that was not how I was raised...

"Fading" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Bin Mohammed 2007

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The Real Reason behind Media Attacks to Islam

“Muslim caught for robbery”, “Suspicious Muslim arrested for carrying a firearm” and many more news headlines. These are but a few instances where the Islam religion is being dragged unto the side of the foe, the negative, the wrong doer, and the aggressive ones. Media news and headlines even spices up this notion of hatred through massive broadcasts all throughout the vast populace. With media’s power in building out image and at the same time to destroy such, it can be very much evident today as with the case of Anti-Islam propaganda.

Some commentators would say that negative media attacks to Islam emanated from the September 11 incident wherein an alleged terrorist from an Arab country bombed and attacked the World Trade Center in New York. If this is the origin of the current media attacks, then it would be the dumbest reason at all. In reality, negative propaganda and religious attacks to Islam can be traced back in history.

In the earlier years when the drive for conquest is on the surge, religion played an important role in nation building (the case of the Ottoman and Moorish in Europe). At the same time that Christianity and other major religions flourish, Islam had its own share of glory and success. Islam at that time had the opportunity and gaining widespread acceptance on the Western World, faster than other religions. Of course, human’s nature of greed for more power and territory had caused other religions to retaliate against Islam. Other than the use of brute force, attacks were made through use of word spread and communication.

Come to think of it, such greed for power and territory can still play a major role on today’s negative publicities on the Islam religion. If not for these, maybe business does. One of the core foundations of Mass Media is to deliver impartial, fair, and responsible information to the public. In the case of the Muslims and of the Islam religion, constant deliveries of un-precise and evasive messages by the media have influenced the mindset of almost the majority of the population. Petty crimes are sensational news if it involves an individual belonging to the Islam religion.

A person from the Middle East is generally referred to as a Muslim rather than to identify himself in terms of nationality. Oftentimes, every negative image is generalized, thus, it created a stereotype notion that Islam or the Muslims are essentially bad persons.

But it is NOT TRUE. Islam and the Muslim people are peace-loving individuals; they strictly abide by the established rules and norms as much as other religions and cultures would do. Islam adheres to equality, responsibility and also prosecutes illegal and bad activities. In reality, there are even more crimes involving Non-Muslims.

Since that is the case, it is required that the media is much more responsible in delivering information.  To totally eliminate the negative stereotype that has already became a culture; we need to have a dialogue.  But most importantly, we need to accord our neighbors respect whoever they are and whatever their religions are.

~Without You~


~Without You~
Walking in a land filled with darkness…
Sensing nothingness but only sadness…
Sadness & Darkness roams around my soul…
They are looking for me, I am their goal…
I bear alot of sufferings yet I show no tears…
Sadly releasing screams that no one hears…
I spread death over my loved ones again…
In my heart only tears, cries and pain…
Till the end of time, this suffering will remain…
“Without You” Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Bin Mohammed 2007