Friday, December 31, 2010

~In Search Of Love~

In search of love, love I have found

Along with stinging grief

And once again, I must set forth,

To try to find relief

But with this pain, a lesson learned

One’s heart’s a precious jewel

A wary mind and cautious soul

To not be made a fool....

"In Search Of Love" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2007

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Our Purpose

The plants have dried and gone... Life here is not for the faint... Stealing, hurting and so on. We have become virtue-less creatures who feed on the weak and nobody shall stop us or we will rip out their tongue before they can speak... The end is near and I sincerely fear there will be punishment for our behavior... Are we not but skin, flesh, bones fueled with soul!? Is there something more? Are we all alone on this planet and in this time can we turn it all around and be forgiven our crimes!? Turn over a new leaf and surrender our belief that we are owed something...

"Our Purpose" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


((إِنَّمَا الْمُؤْمِنُونَ إِخْوَةٌ فَأَصْلِحُوا بَيْنَ أَخَوَيْكُمْ وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُرْحَمُونَ) )
سورة الحجرات الآية 10

“The Mu’minoon are but a single Brotherhood.”
The Holy Quran (49:10)

Before I started the new module in my Executive MBA course I was going to the farthest of the three close mosques to our house. I wanted to be a stranger so I can worship freely without worrying others might disturb me. This mosque was filled with poor Pakistanis. I wanted to break my pride into pieces and to see how I can manage praying alongside the poor in an old mosque. I always believed that to become truly great I have to stand with people, not above them. I wanted to be with those Pakistani people who just came to pray.

Days passed, some of those Pakistani were smiling to the new stranger in the mosque, while some others were sitting quietly watching me pray or read Quran and while others were sitting next to me talking, asking questions like what's my name and where I am living. Sometimes people would prepare a space for me, handing me Quran. I thought the reason for this great treatment was the fact that I was the only Emirati in the mosque. Sometimes I found myself surrounded by men talking about Islam in general, I thought they were surrounding me maybe because they wanted money. However my assumptions were wrong! They were doing the same for each other’s as well. When you see them you can’t tell the difference, you see them as one family, as real brothers. I said to myself if all Muslims live in peace just like them; living in peace in our wicked world is no dream.

The college started, I couldn’t go to that mosque and I was praying Al-Fajer prayer in the closest mosque to my house for I was lazy to walk to a far mosque. While the others prayers, I was praying in the Work’s mosque or the college’s. After the module ended, I decided to go to that mosque again. It’s been almost month, the moment I entered the mosque the cleaner of the mosque was surprised and he didn’t even know Arabic but he was able to say: “Entah Waain?” with a big happy smile. I never expected that the cleaner would talk to me; in fact he told me his father was praying for me! He told his father about me, about the stranger who prayed in the mosque.  

After I entered, I was welcomed by the Pakistani, each one hugging me asking me where I’ve been. Someone thought that I left the area I am living in so he felt sad that he would not see me again. Some said they felt a dear brother was missing; some others were searching for me asking each other where I disappeared. One was holding my hand so I sit, a second prepared a space for me, a third brought Quran holder and a fifth gave me Quran. Each one of them has something to give not to take, a beautiful word, great serving, unconditional love. The "Mo'athen" the one who called for prayer told me to call for prayer; he wanted to hear my voice he claimed he missed it and so I called for prayer. Then the Imam entered and he was amazed to see me as well. They were so happy to the extent the Imam forwarded me so I can pray as the Imam. When I was praying I realized my cheeks were wet because of my tears… I always thought I was a lone wolf, a stranger to them, but after this incident I realized I am not alone, maybe a Lone Emirati, but never a Lone Muslim.
I was moved by the warm greetings of those Pakistani people because I saw in them forming the True-Muslim-Brotherhood bond. This brotherhood of Muslims is very deep and that guarantees the well being of the whole nation.

They were people you can count on anytime and when you need support they will lend a shoulder to cry on or support you in a time of need.  I saw in them true brotherhood, which is to love for your brother as much as you love for yourself, and hate for your brother what you hate for yourself. At first I was surprised how is the bond so great with them but after some encounters, I realized those men realized they born to encounter suffering and sorrow, joy and happiness, and therefore, bound to sympathize with each other. They realized they are crossing the sea on one big boat, the moment they find a hole they try to close it. They grasped the idea that each Muslim is a mirror for his brother.

((الْمُؤْمِنُونَ وَالْمُؤْمِنَاتُ بَعْضُهُمْ أَوْلِيَاءُ بَعْضٍ يَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَيَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنكَرِ وَيُقِيمُونَ الصَّلاةَ وَيُؤْتُونَ الزَّكَاةَ وَيُطِيعُونَ اللَّهَ وَرَسُولَهُ أُوْلَئِكَ سَيَرْحَمُهُمُ اللَّهُ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَزِيزٌ حَكِيمٌ((
سورة التوبة الآية 71

“The Believers, men and women, are protectors one of another: they enjoin the ma`roof (all of Islam), and forbid the munkar (all that is evil; kufr): they observe regular prayers, pay Zakat, and obey Allah and His Messenger. On them will Allah pour His mercy: for Allah is Exalted in power, Wise.”
The Holy Quran (9:71)

I went to the same mosque  hour earlier to AlFajr Athan, the lights were switched off and it was totally dark. I was scared but decided to pray in this darkness alone because in such quiet place filled with darkness I feel am closer to god. While I was praying I was hearing sounds, these sounds at first scared me so I finished my prayer quickly to switch the lights on. When I switched the lights on, I was amazed that many and I mean MANY Pakistani people praying! I then realized the sound I was hearing was the sounds of their cries. When I saw this I realized from where they get power to love for each others as for themselves, it has nothing to do with race or any other type of invalid reason to unite but is rather a bond based on faith.

No bond is greater than the brotherhood of Islam, it originates from faith and love with chain of compassion a mystical bond of brotherhood is formed that makes all Muslim brothers. This bond is strong because it’s based on the Islamic belief, and faith in what Prophet Mohammed (Peace be Upon Him) Said:

"The Believers, in their mutual love, mercy and compassion, are like one body: if one organ complained, the rest of the body develops a fever."

We always talk about Islamic Brotherhood but we barely practice it, but with those men I couldn’t find a better example for brotherhood in our iniquitous age.  I wonder if we Emaratis, in our mosque, saw a lone Pakistani stranger, are we going to treat him like those Pakistani treated me!? Prophet Mohammed (Peace Be Upon Him) Said:

"None of you will have faith till he wishes for his (Muslim) brother what he likes for himself."
(Sahih Al-Bukhari Volume 1, Book 2, Number 12)

Monday, December 27, 2010

~Who Am I?~

I drive a shiny car and make loads of cash

I get women who are pretty in a dash

This thing called love? For I know nothing of

I am passing time and collecting my dues

From society I lack a muse

Are you jealous of what I have?

I am lavish and charming and you would never know

I am sinful and lowly and quite emotionally hollow

I do not need human approval or love

I need only accessories and social networking clubs

Who Am I ? 

"Who Am I?" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2005

Sunday, December 26, 2010

القواعد الذهبية في حفظ القرآن و تدبره

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الحمدلله وحده و الصلاة و السلام على من لا نبي بعده

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته ...

قرأت كتاب القواعد الذهبية للشيخ عبدالرحمن عبدالخالق و وجدت فيه قواعد و فوائد فلخصته لأنشره لعلي أختصر القواعد الأساسية لحفظ القرآن و تدبره

قواعد في تدبر القرآن

1. وجوب تعلم لغة العرب
2. دراسة سيرة الرسول صلى الله عليه و سلم
3. أخذ بيان النبي صلى الله عليه و سلم للقرآن
4. معرفة أسباب النزول
5. الإكثار من النظر في كتب التفسير
6. دراسة تفاسير أهل العلم
7. العكوف عليه و الإنقطاع إليه للنظر و التأمل و التفكر و التدبر
8. إثارة القرآن (مدارسته)
9. إنزال القرآن على الواقع
10. أخذ القرآن للعلم و العمل
11. التسليم لله عند متشابهة

القواعد الذهبية لحفظ القرآن

1. الإخلاص
2. تصحيح النطق و القراءة
3. تحديد نسبة الحفظ كل يوم
4. لا تجاوز مقررك اليومي حتى تجيد حفظه تماما
5. حافظ على رسم واحد لمصحف حفظك
6. الفهم طريقة الحفظ
7. لا تجاوز سورة حتى تربط أولها بآخرها
8. التسميع الدائم
9. المتابعة الدائمة
10. العناية بالمتشابهات
11. اغتنم سني الحفظ الذهبية

أحكام في آداب الفتح على الإمام

1. يجوز الفتح على الإمام إذا نسي آية
2. يجب أن تكون النية تذكيره إن نسي أو تصحيح ما أخطأ فيه لا أن ينوي القراءة من دون سبب
3. لا يجوز المبادرة بالفتح على الإمام إذا سكت إلا إذا علم أن سكوته من أجل نسيان
4. لا يجوز لمن يصحح آية يرى أن الإمام أخطأ فيها أن يبادر بتصحيحها إلا إذا كان على ثقة من حفظه
5. لا يجوز الرد و التصحيح للإمام إذا كان مجيدا أو على علم بالقراءات و المصحح على علم بقراءة واحدة إلا إذا علم علما يقينا أن الحرف الذي أخطأ فيه الإمام ليس حرفا متواترا أو علم أن الإمام فقط يعرف قراءة واحدة
6. لا يحق للمأموم الذي لا يصل صوته إلى الإمام أن يفتح على الإمام
7. لا يجوز التولي و التصحيح للإمام لأكثر من واحد في نفس الوقت
8. لا يجوز للمرأة إذا صلت خلف الرجال أن تفتح على الإمام ولا أن تصحح له
9. لا يجوز للمأموم أن يحمل مصحفا لمتابعة قراءة الإمام و تصحيحه إذا أخطأ
10. يجب أن يخلص النية بعيدا عن الرياء

Saturday, December 25, 2010

~Lost Love~

I say I will love you forever
With all my heart and soul
But you said I don't want to be together
So you gave my heart a hole

My life isn't complete without you
You are my other half
What am I suppose to do
You took away my laugh

We used to talk all night
Now we never talk at all
I am never going to stop this fight
Till you catch me when I fall

I was your blooming seed
Who loved you with all I had
Now you do weed
Why did you turn so bad?

I dreamed one day we would be married
Everything would turn out fine
Now that thought is buried
Never again will you be mine...

"Lost Love" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2008

Friday, December 24, 2010

Why Only Muslims?

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

السلام عليكـم ورحمـة الله وبـركـاته

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Revealing The Less Cited Benefits Of Reading

In the earlier years, people have greatly relied on reading books to be able to gain and hone their knowledge and thinking abilities, at the same time, people then not only use books for learning but also served as a communication tool and a form of entertainment. Everyone was eager to have even a single book, everyone dreamed to learn how to read. In its early years, books were only an item for the rich and a dream for the poor; they are the fountain of knowledge. However, the emergence of technological breakthroughs from the radio, television and afterwards, computers and the internet have slowly side winded peoples attitude towards reading and interest on books. This case is very much evident especially on the younger generation, on today’s new age students.

Teachers would note that students are rarely interested on reading books. Parents could no longer compel their child to read. We may no longer experience such times wherein during the winter or colder seasons, we would just sit in the couch and read some interesting and imaginative books. Today, most people would probably sit on the couch and play on a computer game or stick their eyes unto the television. Notwithstanding this situation, there is still hope in inculcating the vast advantages, benefits and importance of reading and mainly, the declining interest on books. I have cited the major ones on the following discussions.

Essentially, reading promotes creativity and a person’s imagination. Compared to the favorite past time of watching a movie or television, books would require the reader to create in his mind characters that would fit into the description of what he/she reads and on how a particular setting or act is portrayed. Improving one’s abilities in terms of reading is as good as to increasing the ability to comprehend most vague concepts and ideas. Critical thinking and effective decision making is also founded on the basis of good reading.

One of the most important benefits of reading is what we need in our daily life, which is to effectively communicate. Before we could talk simultaneously, before we could even use today’s technology, we must first be able to read. Reading is communicating. Reading might also inspire the young to know more about many things or to create interest in many areas. An example would be a boy who happens to read the biography of a great scientist which then inspires him to pursue such field in his high school or college years. 

We massively increase our vocabulary by reading, and aside from our parents, we learn and adopt positive values and habits through reading. In earlier years of reading we can be familiar of what values are wrong and what are right or the acceptable ones. There are even studies proving that reading in early childhood years is an effective way of avoiding drugs and illegal activities for the youth. Teachers’ problem on students’ short learning and attention span can be remedied by encouraging the young ones to read. Reading promotes concentration. Spelling and writing can be greatly determined by reading. Also, reading can prepare the young ones when they are about to enter the "Real World" in their adult years. Finally, reading of books within the family creates a close bond with its every member.

Thus, the importance of reading and books are said to be boundless, even with the existence or birth of the newest of technological improvements.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010


We are the dark warriors.  

Dark, empty and idiotic.... 

For we have no soul to spare...

we gave them away without any care...  

Our insides are murky like a dirty pond... 

but one day the sky was bright 

We met our savior and formed a bond...

Now we are kind, helpful and charming...

We spread good deeds and are very disarming...

We shall sacrifice our lives to help others...

For our God, our sisters and brothers... 

"Warriors" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2005

Monday, December 20, 2010


I know of people, who lived for our cause…
Their lives they stopped and put on pause…

They spent their time, trying to do good…
Not out of greed, just because they could…

Who did these Prophets dedicate their lives to?
Humanity, my friend… Yes, me and you…

They gave up their freedom; they gave up their names…
To work their time away, not playing any games…

But now we live better because of these men…
Let’s hope no one has to belittle them again…

So, that's how it is, let it be said…
They made our lives better, and now they are dead…

"Prophets" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Sunday, December 19, 2010

The "Normal" Me & The "Perfect" You

Couldn't sleep right because I cried a lot last night.

Thinking what went wrong I thought we were bonded together so strong.

You told me not to have thoughts like that, but I try to fight them, but they have already taken over me and I was left here to die by every moment you are not awake to stare into my eyes... I was dying I've bled out, before I lived in peace with your every word but now what happened? Why can I see the difference between you and me...

You might say: "Nothing changed, don't be so dump Aziz" but believe me I am same old "Me" but a brand new "You"... I thought you'd always want me, A while ago, I thought that too, but your aiming for perfection, growing up, your mind got sick of me, brand new "You" Same old "Me"

If you are not changed, I will not feel empty and alone, the old "You" would sit beside me and fill my loneliness, the "Perfect" you left me behind on my own. Now it hurts so bad, I tried to let go, to forget, to get over it and to believe you didn't change but it seems my heart won't let go. I remember the old "You"; if I cried so many tears, you would gently remove my tears and if you failed you would cry with me but the "Perfect" you is only here seems to make me feel like more tears will fall...

Same old heart of mine crying out for you I just don't know what to do... I am missing the "Normal" you I always knew, the "You" that I created in my imaginations... How could it come so far, the old "You" was always like my tower of strength and my star. While the "Perfect" you giving me the words of care but not feelings of care... The old "You" would tell me that: "I will always be there" giving me all I need to believe what you say, the "Perfect" you give me a gentle smile like always yet it is giving me thoughts that I am just in your way.

I am so confused and lonely I feel not knowing what is real.... My head only ever thought of everything you put me through, the "Normal" you said she loved me once, remember? I don't want a brand New "You" I want same old "You". I know your sick hearing that....

I trusted your words so much, I thought we would stay in touch. Being best friends forever; being there for one another. I still believe so but I don't know what to do more, nothing more to say the pain is still here and it wont go away. Your "Perfect " you is breaking my heart, she left me here in agony and fear.

Why do you have to be "Worried about Hurting Me" The Normal "You" would only make me "Miss You" & "I need You" but the new You ripping my soul, tearing it apart... Why do you have to leave the "Old" you, unconditionally your tearing the heart right off my sleeve. I guess I wasn't good enough… I guess you wanted a more "Perfect-like" being.

I hope you find what you are looking for, I hope you find it, I really hope you do since I gave up on being what you want me to be... Maybe I could get over you but since there is nothing left to do and nothing left to say and because the pain is still here…

I think I will just go back to my bed enduring all the pain shouting and screaming but only I can hear, I scream your name, asking for your help, but your not there... You are too much… too much to handle, but you know I still love you and I will never lose my faith in you and still wait for the "Old" you...

Into the darkness, the pain bearing down on me, the endless tears, our great bond of love slowly dying, I can't breath. Even though that time has come and passed, yet you live and stay as a permanent resident in my mind, causing such destruction to my heart, destroying every hope of having peace of mind I thought I would have....

Something has been different in the way I live ever since I met you, You completely took my ability from ever feeling normal again. Letting you go only has the definition of Nightmare...

I am not going to blame, complain, suffer, ask you stay with me and save me or how much I need you for only the "Old" you would realize what I am going through and only the real "You" will know that... I am not going to lie but it bothers me so much, crushed and weak for not having the strength to let you go after knowing that you moved on. My "Old" me is still here, fading away slowly, perfection is gone... Hoping everything will be okay.

I admit, its hard, but holding on to the "Old"-you-image wont get me too far since you are aiming for "Perfection" you are going far, leaving me behind among the "Non-perfect" beings forgotten and out of your mind.... One thing I want to say, One simple thing, the "Old" you was my special friend I never wanted to part.

We humans are not meant to be perfect, I will wait for the moment when you will realize that, the moment when you decide to keep me by your side again, and if you realized and came back to me, I will hide all the suffering in a smile and will summarize everything saying "Welcome Back"....

"The "Normal"& The"Perfect" " Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2009

Saturday, December 18, 2010

~Wandering Soul~

Awakened by a dreadful thunder
None like I have heard before
Dazed confusion fills my head
I run but don't know what's in store

Screams and howls that don't subside
I find at every turn I make
I seek a shelter where to hide
But find no shelter I can take

Enraged and scared I must move on
And try to find escape from here
A silence falls so suddenly
Which fills my spine with chilling fear

I see myself from up above
A lifeless body on the ground
My cherished life been stripped from me
My soul now wanders all around...

"Wandering Soul" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Friday, December 17, 2010

~Thank You~

I "Thank You" from my heart,

For each lovely support for me,

I felt that I was worth it you see.

For I made you learn through fun.

With all I have said and done.

You've changed the grade around,

Turning it up when I was going down.

Because of great students like you 

Who surprise me with things they do 

My class is a better place for pleasure

I will keep them in memory as a treasure

I praise you richly And Thank you so muchly…

"Thank You" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Thursday, December 16, 2010


In all my life, I have never felt,

A pain as great as this

The throbbing dwells, within my heart,

I cannot force release

I feel I am drowning, while awake,

I fight but cannot breathe

I know with time, this pain will pass,

But not when that will be...

"Pain" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2004

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Tenth Of Muharram Fasting


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

عَنْ عَبْدَ اللَّهِ بْنَ عَبَّاسٍ، رَضِيَ اللَّهُ عَنْهُمَا، قَالَ: حِينَ صَامَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم يَوْمَ عَاشُورَاءَ وَأَمَرَ بِصِيَامِهِ، قَالُوا: يَا رَسُولَ اللَّهِ! إِنَّهُ يَوْمٌ تُعَظِّمُهُ الْيَهُودُ وَالنَّصَارَى. فَقَالَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم : فَإِذَا كَانَ الْعَامُ الْمُقْبِلُ، إِنْ شَاءَ اللَّهُ، صُمْنَا الْيَوْمَ التَّاسِعَ. قَالَ: فَلَمْ يَأْتِ الْعَامُ الْمُقْبِلُ، حَتَّى تُوُفِّيَ رَسُولُ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم . ( صحيح مسلم، 1134(133) ).

قال الشافعي وأصحابه وأحمد وإسحاق وآخرون: يستحب صوم التاسع والعاشر جميعا; لأن النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم صام العاشر, ونوى صيام التاسع ... قال بعض العلماء: ولعل السبب في صوم التاسع مع العاشر ألا يتشبه باليهود في إفراد العاشر. وفي الحديث إشارة إلى هذا. ( شرح صحيح مسلم: (4/267-268) ).

Muslims fast on this day of Ashura based on narrations attributed to Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him). The fasting is to commemorate the day when Moses and his followers were saved from Pharaoh by Allah by creating a path in the Red Sea. The Jews used to fast on the 10th day. So Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) recommended to be different from the Jews and recommended fasting two days instead of one.9th and 10th

A companion of Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him), Ibn Abas reports Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) went to Medina and found the Jews fasting on the tenth of Muharram. Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) inquired of them, "What is the significance of this day on which you fast?" They replied, "This is a good day, the day on which God rescued the children of Israel from their enemy. So, Moses fasted this day." Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) said, "We have more claim over Moses than you." Prophet Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him) then fasted on that day and ordered Muslims too…

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

A Dream

Few days back I had many dreams, at a short time. Dreaming, waking up and again dreaming for maybe 2 hours. I wouldn’t be lying if I said I saw around ten dreams and surprisingly enough, the dreams were actually long ones.

That night I kept asking myself, what’s wrong, is it “Time” moving slowly or is it that really dreams only take few minutes if not seconds! Believe it or not, days after I saw dreams and I calculated the time, most of my dreams were less than 3 minutes. When I was dreaming I can remember the details, the events, what I did in the dream and in that dream it was no way all this happened in few seconds, in fact if I just describe one dream I saw, just the description itself will be more than 5 minutes but it only lasted few seconds!

This fact reminded me that life itself is like a dream; we are eating, drinking, living and dying. It seems to us we are having a very long life, 60 years. We are living in a dream, believing it will be a long lasting dream, ignoring the fact that we might wake up (Die) anytime realizing that our life only lasted few seconds. Allah said in the Quran:

((قَالَ كَمْ لَبِثْتُمْ فِي الأرْضِ عَدَدَ سِنِينَ * قَالُواْ لَبِثْنَا يَوْماً أَوْ بَعْضَ يَوْمٍ فَاسْأَلِ الْعَآدّينَ * قَالَ إِن لّبِثْتُمْ إِلاّ قَلِيلاً لّوْ أَنّكُمْ كُنتُمْ تَعْلَمُونَ*))
سورة المؤمنون من الآية 112 إلى الآية 114

He will say: "What number of years did ye stay on earth?" They will say: "We stayed a day or part of a day: but ask those who keep account."  He will say: "Ye stayed not but a little - if ye had only known!
Holy Quran (23: 112-114)

In dreams we might be happy, having health, wealth, power and control. Enjoying the fantasy, we maybe are the heroes in the dream. The problem is once we wake up, all these disappear and we realize that we are the same miserable people. What makes you great is that you are awake while you are dreaming and you can take things from your dream where you can benefit in your real life; this is a true hero in my eyes not a dream-created-hero. Same thing in our lives, we are not great if we are great in this world only but we are great if we took what we need for the hereafter and considered great on that time.

If someone told you, I will have you to live in the desert, and he gives you three things you can choose, money, car or water. Since we have only one choice we will decide to take the most valuable out of all so we can live and that’s water. Similarly we should take from this world the most valuable thing so we can live happily in the hereafter.

This life is very short and we might wake up anytime, we were created for a reason, our role is defined properly, we shouldn’t act on other roles, or ignore the fact that we have a role. A Very great role…

((أَفَحَسِبْتُمْ أَنَّمَا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ عَبَثاً وَأَنَّكُمْ إِلَيْنَا لا تُرْجَعُونَ))
سورة المؤمنون الآية 115

"Did ye then think that We had created you in jest, and that ye would not be brought back to Us (for account)?"
Holy Quran (23: 115)

Monday, December 13, 2010


Searched all across the world for comfort
Yearning warmth in an embrace
Day in day out my hope was tested
Though I never lost my faith

Like a piercing ray of sunlight shining
Through a black of clouds above
Darkness that once filled my life
Is now burning with your love

My past been filled with ghosts of shadows
That slowly drained my life from me
My soul came back to life when I saw you
Learned a love that's pure and free

Enlightened now I have found the one
I have yearned forever more
Learned to embrace each single drop
Like I have not embraced before

"Hope" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

ولسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الحمدلله وحده و الصلاة و السلام على من لا نبي بعده

السلام عليكم و رحمة الله و بركاته

للهموم وجوه كثيرة أسوأها الوقوف عند حافة اليأس و فقدان الأمل. في الآونة الأخيرة زار قلبي ضيف ثقيل لا يكاد يبرح مقامه فقد ابتليت بأمر أرهقني فالغم لازمني و الحزن صاحبني و الهم أحرق مقلتي و الدمع أغرقني... الفرح إن حضر يوما غاب بقية أيامي, القلب بحرارة يشتكي و ينادي الذي أهمني و لكن لا حياة لمن ينادي فبقي الألم يواسيني و الظلام يحضنني... نظرت للسماء شاكيا همي ألتمس رؤية الحمام لكني وجدتها مليئة بالغمام كأنها محملة بالغموم و كافة أنواع الهموم... و نظرت للأرض باكيا قلبي وجدت الحب فيها سرابا و القلوب مملوءة حقدا و عذابا...

فقدت ما أريد و أقام في قلبي كل هم كئيب و فقدت الكنز الثمين و كدت أفقد اليقين إلا أني رفضت الإنكسار و وجهت وجهي للعزيز الغفار له الحمد و الثناء مقتديا بالأنبياء... فتحت المصحف فسبحان الله وقع بصري على الآية: "وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى" هاج قلبي و ضج و أحسست بأن الخطاب موجه لي:

"يا أيها المهموم الكسير يا أيها المغموم الحسير... يا أسير الحزن أبشر ثم أبشر ثم أبشر فما ودعك ربك...  إذا غطى ظلمة الحزن بجلبابه نهارك و أطبق الغم بجناحيه عالمك فلسوف نعطيك و نرضيك...

إن عصفت بك عواصف الهم و زلزل قلبك الغم و أغرقتك أمواج الحزن و اجتمعت عليك المصائب و نوائب الدهر و كثرت عليك المصاعب فاهتف باسم رب المشارق و المغارب و ستزول كل تلك المتاعب... إن ضاق صدرك بالهموم و الغموم فاهتف يا حي يا قيوم عسى أن ترضى بالمقسوم...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

يا عبدالعزيز ربك أعلم بك منك و أعلم بمصابك و بلواك و يعلم متقلبك و مثواك و مأواك و يسمع دعائك و نجواك ... إذا ألم البلوى قصم ظهرك و أوهن جسمك فسيكشف غمك و ينقض ظهرك... إن داهمك أمر عظيم سيكفيك ربك العظيم...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن باعدك الأصحاب فرب الأرباب أدناك و اختارك من خلقه و ابتلاك... إن لم ينفعك الأقارب و الأنساب و تقطعت بك الأسباب فما ودعك ربك و ما قلاك... إن فقدت عزيز و إن فارقك حبيب فنحن منك قريب و أقرب من حبل الوريد...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إذا الهم طغى و بغى و كل من صاحب رجوته اتبع هواه فهوى و غوى و ودعك و قلى  و لم تعرف كيف تستقيم على طريقتك الأولى و الفرح اختفى و تولى فاذكر شديد القوى محيى الموتى الذي أنشأك النشأة الأولى فهو قادر على أن يعيدك سيرتك الأولى إن وجدك عبدا إذا ذكر ربه  صلى و نهى النفس عن الهوى و كان على الهدى...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن ابتليت بمصيبة تحل النقم و ذنوب تبدل النعم و حرمان ورث الندم و إن زللت للحصول على مرادك و ذكرتنا فنحن نغفر الزلة ونضع عنك وزرك و إن أذّلك مريدك فنحن نجبر تلك الذلة و ننقض ظهرك و نشرح صدرك و نرفع لك ذكرك... إن همت نفسك بالمعصية و ابتليت بارتكاب السيئة فأكرمناك بفعل الحسنة و محونا عنك الخطيئة...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كنت في أمرك في حيرة عمياء و أذن الآخرين عن سماعك صماء و أصابتك الضراء فاعلم أن ربك يسمع و يرى و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى وليذيقنك نعماء بعد ضراء... إن لم يفهمك إلا القلة فسنجعلهم لك نعم الخلة و لسوف نعطيك و نرضيك ألم نجنبك فعل الرذيلة و أكرمناك بالأخلاق الكريمة الفضيلة!؟

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن أحاطك الشيطان و لم تجد من يعطيك الحنان فتذكر الرحمن الذي وسعت رحمته كل شيء المنان خالق الأكوان الذي أغرقك بالنعم على مر الأزمان فاعتصم بالقرآن فهو الركن إن خانتك أركان و لسوف يعطيك ربك ما لم يكن في الحسبان و كل منه إحسان...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إذا ابتغيت أمرا و لم تبلغه و منعك الآخرون فما كان عطاء ربك محظورا بل ممنوح يغدو و يروح... إن طلبت ذوي الشأن و ردوك فتذكر ربك الذي كل يوم هو في شأن يعز و يزل يضيق و يوسع يبتلي فلان بالمحنة و يدفع عن علان النقمة و ذلك منه منّة. يقي الإنسان شر نفسه و سلمه من شرور خلقه يسهل الشديد و منجز الوعيد...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كان حب الورى بحب ليلى و سلمى و ندى و منى ذاك الحب الداني لنرزقنك قلبا يسري شوقا للقاء ربك الأعلى و لنكرمنك بالحب الراقي كمثل النبي موسى حين قال: "وعجلت إليك رب لترضى"

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن كنت في زمرة المحزونين ذوي القلوب المنكسرة الخاشعة الصادقة فالله يغيث المنكوبين و ينصر المستضعفين و الصادقين و يجيب دعوة المضطرين رب إذا سئل لا يرد سائله و إذا رجي لا يخيب رجاءه أهل التقوى و أهل المغفرة...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى

إن أظلمت أمامك الدروب و اشتدت الخطوب و الكروب فاذكر علام الغيوب بالخضوع و الخشوع ليشع قلبك نورا و يمتلئ صدرك سرورا و حبورا فمنك الدعاء و منه الإجابة فهو ربك الأعلى و لسوف يعطيك فترضى...  إن انقطعت الآمال و أكثرت السؤال و شكوت لربك الحال ليبدلنك الحال...

وَلَسَوْفَ يُعْطِيكَ رَبُّكَ فَتَرْضَى
يا عبدالعزيز سبح اسم ربك الأعلى و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى... إن ضاق صدرك وسعناه و إن مرضت شفيناك و إن ابتليت عافيناك... إن أخطأت فذاك طبع الإنسان و الكامل الله الرحمن...

حينها اغتنمت الثلث الأخير في غياهب السحر تحت ظلال الصمت حين ينزل رب العزة إلى السماء الدنيا نزولا يليق بجلاله لزمت الإستغفار و دعوت العزيز الجبار بسهام الليل مستخدما بريد الإنكسار بعثت شكوتي إلى محكمة العدل في السماء ورفعت يدي و بسطت إليه أكف الضراعة أشكو همي و بثي و حزني إلى قاضي السماء من قاضي الأرض الذي عاملني بجفاء و أنا غارق بدموعي بكل جهد و عناء... قلت: "اللهم إني أسألك بأن لك الحمد لا إله إلا أنت وحدك لا شريك لك المنان يا بديع السماوات و الأرض يا ذا الجلال و الإكرام يا حي يا قيوم يا رب أدعوك دعاء الغريق في بحر همومه الذي لا يجد كشف ما هو فيه إلا أنت فيا رب لا تترك عبدك هالكا... اللهم يا الله برحمتك أستغيث و من غيرك أستغيث اللهم أغلقت الأبواب إلا بابك و خاب الرجاء إلا في جنابك و إنقطعت الآمال إلا فيك و خشعت الأصوات إلا صوتك, اللهم يا مقلب القلوب اللهم يا علام الغيوب اللهم إليك أشكو ضعف قوتي، وقلة حيلتي، وهواني على الناس. يا أرحم الراحمين إلى من تكلني؟ إلى عدو يتجهمني أم إلى قريب ملكته أمري؟ إن لم تكن ساخطا علي فلا أبالي، غير أن عافيتك أوسع لي. أعوذ بنور وجهك الكريم الذي أضاءت له السموات والأرض، وأشرقت له الظلمات، وصلح عليه أمر الدنيا والآخرة، أن تحل علي غضبك، أو تنزل علي سخطك، ولك العتبى حتى ترضى، ولا حول ولا قوة إلا بك"...  فلم أزل أناجي ربي حتى سمعت بخاطري (و لسوف يعطيك ربك فترضى) فتبسمت رغم معاناتي و علمت أن ربي سيحقق العدل لي و ينهي ماساتي  و لسوف يعطيني فيرضيني إن شاء... سكن دمي و جف عرقي... رق عظمي و ضعف... و هدأ قلبي و صمت ...

Saturday, December 11, 2010


So much power
So much might
Do what’s bad
Or do what’s right

Follow your heart
Or follow your mind
Be ruthless, be mean
Or try to be kind

Feed the hungry, the poor
Fill your coffers with gold
Now come, choose which door
Make your choice, just be bold

The path, is it straight
Or does it take you awry?
Do you give in to hate
Do you cheat, steal and lie?

Or follow the righteous
The charity waits
Yell and just fight us
Come, go through the gates

Come to the side
That is evil and dark
Be hurtful and snide
Just leave your mark

No, come to the light
Give your heart and your hand
No anger, no fight
Can you understand?

The wrong thing so easy,
The right is so hard
But it makes you queasy
To choose the wrong card

Play the hand that you’re dealt
But play it well, son
You know how it felt
How the choice was won

Make it now, go the way
Of the martyr and God
Choose saving the day
Though devilry prods

And you choose the good
As you walk through the door
You lifted the hood
And you gave some more

The power in you
The good wins the day
You’ve done the right thing
And you’ve gone the right way
"Decision" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2010

Friday, December 10, 2010

~Walking Away~

The more I needed the less you gave

I guess you thought that it worked that way

You never would listen

And now that I am leaving

You are not believing a word I say

If you think I won't go, watch me

Oh, watch me prove you wrong today

You don't even know you lost me

You think I will always stay

Ohh, just watch me walk away

"Walking Away" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2005

Thursday, December 9, 2010


I have many experiences and have much on my plate

I have stayed strong and stay here in wait

When I am wronged no matter the wrong I negate

A grudge is not something to add to my weight

I would rather forgive now then stand there and wait

Spending times with my friend is my best real estate

I would protect them no matter what that is something I can restate

Smiling at any given state, kindness to strangers is another trait

I find that kindness should be spread not replaced with hate

Lowering the tears in the world and stopping its growth rate

  "I" Is Copyright To AbdulAziz Mohammed 2009